Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Getting back on track: why I need Jesus

I received a very interesting response about my last post, both via comment and facebook. I believe the consensus was "ewwwe...that post was dark and hopeless."
One thing I've found useful about having this blog is that not only am I able to communicate where I'm at (in terms of life, thought process, physically, etc.) but I'm also able to communicate what I'm processing. The last post fits into the latter category.

So, partially as a rebuttal, and partially because I want to set the record straight, here's the other half of my thought process; the yin to yesterday's yang if you will.

Life with Jesus is a whole lot better than life without Jesus. (Mrs. Jones, that's my thesis statement for this post)
In my last post, if you look closely, I don't even mention God. I mention religion, but even that in a negative way. Here's what I'm getting at: without Jesus, without hope, without love (both of which He is) life is pointless. Without God the end all of man is to satisfy his hunger for sin: a hunger that ultimately leads to death.
My friend, Max Moser, wrote an interesting article for his school newspaper about just such a belief.

Now that last paragraph may have been incredibly easy for you to read. You may have already tackled this issue of right vs. wrong, good vs. bad in your own mind. The problem I face, is not distinguishing between the light and the dark, but rather living it out on a day-to-day moment-by-moment level. It's the whole issue of Romans 7 for me.
This, I fear, will take another whole post to discuss.

So, as much as my last post was a digression, so this post is getting back on track. I am firm in my belief in Jesus as my personal Savior. Sometimes, I just need to spill my guts about everything else going on in my head.



  1. I'm right there with you buddy. Knowing the difference between right and wrong is easy peasy (japanesy). But living in the right is a whole 'nother slice of pie. I don't know about you, but when I lay in bed and replay the day's events in my mind, I'm not always able to look Jesus in the eye. If you find some way around that, please let me know :)

  2. Great pair of posts. Thank you for letting us in to your thought process on this.

  3. Good stuff Colin (and Max). As I have walked with Jesus over the past years, I, too, have struggled with the very questions you raise -- Paul, too. He said, the good I want to do doesn't happen and the evil I don't want to do, I keep repeating. Our struggle. The biggest shift for me is having the confidence to run to Father when I fail. He's my only hope.

  4. I agree with you Colin *and Justin*. and Justin, the way around that is do what God's want before it gets ugly. *obviously* :P

  5. This is such a lovely post, Colin. I can feel how sincere you were while writing it. And nothing more I can say regarding your thesis statement. The thesis help a lot and say all that you need to say for the post. Anyway, keep up the good faith!